It's been my job now and I won't feel good until I satisfy what my parents need. I feel that I really need to buck up on my studies too. I will need to back off from whatever passion I have. It hurts indeed. But I want to change this for the better. Maybe now is not the time to go for passion. Some things or some people just need me more. I've thought through things and I am sticking to this decision. Please don't ask anymore.